My mom tells me the whole: “If it’s ment to be, then it’s ment to be and everything will work out in the end.” And I believe that. I wish life would just tell you your future, but it doesn’t. I wonder what people would do if they knew how their lives were to end up. But right now, we have to live in the moment and in the moment right now, is heartbreak and healing
This is literally the hardest decision of my life by far. And I’m second guessing it. Every time I look down at my left hand, and see that empty ring finger, I start crying. I know it’s not easy for him either. And it hurts so bad to know that I have hurt everything that I had. He was, and still is, my everything. I love him so much. And that’s why I had to let go. I needed to work on myself and see what I want. Its really hard to wake up this morning and not have a “Good morning beautiful” text waiting for me to look at and smile to.
My friends and sisters keep telling me that this is a time for reflection and to figure out what it is that I want from life. And I know that. But it is hard to see that for what it is right now. I know it’s an opportunity to explore myself. But right now, it seems like the death sentence.